I realize it has been two years since I’ve blogged. Honestly, I haven’t felt inspired. I didn’t want to keep writing about certain issues and goals I haven’t accomplished yet. For example, this past year I was determined to find another job. I created a vision board and placed a date on that vision board. I interviewed for several positions and made it into the second round of the interviews. In the end I got the standard form letter. I started taking things very personally. I felt like I wasn’t good enough.
I was frustrated both personally and professionally. I wasn’t dating much. The guy who later became my boyfriend went ghost around December. It hurts because I was open and honest with him and he just cut off all communication. Rejection hurts a lot. In my mind I always had this plan that I would get married when I was 30 years old and have my first child at 32. Well those years have passed and on to the future.
Presently, I’m trying to start 2016 off right. I bought a planner. (I’m secretly a stationary addict). There was a quote on a recent episode of “Being Mary Jane” that I have been focusing on.
“You must give up the life you planned in order to have the life that is waiting for you.”
I’m taking it day by day and so far so good. I’m learning to be grateful and try to find the lesson in each experience. I’m currently reading Valerie Burton’s book “Happy Women Live Better”. One of the tips is to have something to look foward to each day. This has helped make each day easier. For me it could be as simple as meeting a friend for luch or going to the gym.
Right now I’m reflecting on 2015 both the good and the bad so I can start 2016 with more clarity.