I realize it has been two years since I’ve blogged. Honestly, I haven’t felt inspired. I didn’t want to keep writing about certain issues and goals I haven’t accomplished yet. For example, this past year I was determined to find another job. I created a vision board and placed a date on that vision board. I interviewed for several positions and made it into the second round of the interviews. In the end I got the standard form letter. I started taking things very personally. I felt like I wasn’t good enough.
I was frustrated both personally and professionally. I wasn’t dating much. The guy who later became my boyfriend went ghost around December. It hurts because I was open and honest with him and he just cut off all communication. Rejection hurts a lot. In my mind I always had this plan that I would get married when I was 30 years old and have my first child at 32. Well those years have passed and on to the future.
Presently, I’m trying to start 2016 off right. I bought a planner. (I’m secretly a stationary addict). There was a quote on a recent episode of “Being Mary Jane” that I have been focusing on.
“You must give up the life you planned in order to have the life that is waiting for you.”
I’m taking it day by day and so far so good. I’m learning to be grateful and try to find the lesson in each experience. I’m currently reading Valerie Burton’s book “Happy Women Live Better”. One of the tips is to have something to look foward to each day. This has helped make each day easier. For me it could be as simple as meeting a friend for luch or going to the gym.
Right now I’m reflecting on 2015 both the good and the bad so I can start 2016 with more clarity.
I haven’t really had much to blog about. This past summer I just took some time for myself and had to re-evaluate some things. I recently got a new phone and was playing around with camera.
I recently went to a concert featuring Mack Wilds and Melanie Fiona. It was a lot of fun. Both artists were very friendly and personable. Melanie even wished an audience member Happy Birthday. Here are some pictures.
I forgot how much I enjoyed taking pictures. From time to time I’ll plus some of my random photos.
This morning I read the following article from The Washington Post entitled, The Single Life. (The article links to the complete article featured in the Post magazine.) I was reading some of the comments of the respondents and the overwhelming theme was that you can still live a full life and don’t pity them. There is nothing wrong with being single and not being married.
I’ve talked to my mom and great length about her life before she got married at 28. She told me that when she graduated from college she was focused on living her life and marriage was her least concern.
In the past I used to get frustrated when people ask me why I was not married or have kids as if I was an oddity. I now realize why people say just to let life happen. God knows the desire of your hearts and all things happen in his perfect timing. I’m excited about this single life. I’m traveling to Atlanta for work this week, but I definitely plan to throw some fun into it.
Today I was blessed with the opportunity to help celebrate a retired professor’s 90th birthday. He took the time to reflect on his journey of growing up in Snow Hill, AL to eventually becoming renowned band director at an HBCU. His words of advice were simple, “make your own.” This statement means to forge your own path in life and help someone else in the process.
This statement confirmed to me that I am headed in the right direction personally and professionally. As of late, I have been struggling with whether or not I have become complacent at my job. I really enjoy my job, but I’m wondering if I’m giving it my all. One of my dreams has been to publish professionally in an academic journal. I have great ideas, but that’s all they are. Just ideas scribbled on a piece of paper.
This statement today confirmed the fact that I have to face my fears and just try.
Each year for Lent I attempt to give something up and usually end up failing. This year I have decided again to give up dessert (i.e. cake, pudding, etc) and Facebook. Mainly, I want to eat healthier and try not to eat out so much and also I really love dessert. If I see a Krispy Kreme I will pull over. Dessert is my favorite part of the meal.
Secondly, I am hoping this challenge will force me to be more social because, sometimes I have a habit of withdrawing into myself. Its day two and things are looking up. My social calendar for this weekend is already full.
I’m looking forward to these 40 days. I plan to use this time to reflect both spiritually, mentally, and socially and actually accomplish some goals I’ve set.
I have a lot to be thankful on V-Day! I’m blessed to have awesome family and friends. Its weird, at work today I was rushing to finish my V-Day cards so I could mail them to my family and all of a sudden I started getting really emotional. I started thinking about all that my family has done to be there for me and how they make me laugh and push me to be my best.
Throughout the day I got tons of V-Day well wishes which was awesome. Also, I got to see one of my former students which was awesome. I also received a card from my parents. (I love receiving cards.)
Finally, I met one of neighbors and she showed me a magic trick.